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15yo sophmore in hs..kill me, living in New Jersey (best US state btw). Lwk a loser who spends their whole day on the internet mostly. CLOTI AND ZERITH TRUTHER!!

sp/sx4(w3)61 INFP (Fi>Ne>Si>Te) EII IF(N) [R]Lu/E/n aCHW[D]ex FLEV^4312 True Neutral

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I vented to square enix and they made Cloud Strife I swear on my life brooo. I don't really want to go into much detail abt it bc like that's my whole life and how I feel and if some ppl ik personally read this I don't want them to see me straight venting on here to randoms when I don't talk to them so like. I doubt anyone I'm close to wil actually read this bc I doubt they care, but idk. Make them keep thinking idgaf too ig. I also do not care if I'm doing the csm he js like me fr meme wrong i js want a photo of him on the img

I listen to mostly alternative genres. I really like the Visual kei scene, some of my fav bands from there are Plastic Tree, Buck-Tick, Lucifer's Underground, Madmans Esprit, Kebyo, and Senketsuakochan (I'm lowkey basic I know lmao). I also enjoy emo, screamo, punk, industrial, shoegaze, noise, experimental, metal, and overall most alt rock I can enjoy. Right now, the genre I have been listening to the most is probably screamo. I have been enjoying foxtails, Clay Birds, Orchid, noragami, and Arranged in April a lot. I used to listen to a lot of vocaloid, but not so much recently. I still fw Utsu-P, Maretu, and kikuo tho.

Btw I am not one of those "music purists" that hate on anything new and try to claim ppl r posers for not liking, or liking a band omg. If you are like that please block me on everything you make me irritated.. I still have my own dislikes for stuff tho, I do not like most nu-metal. I find their fanbases lwk cringey sorry.

Albums

*note click the img to go to the artist and they are not in order from like fav-least fav*

Bruh im too lazy to continue this I might add more later ok..

My favorite song right now is Vacant Lottery by foxtails. I really, ig, resonate with the song and relate to it in a way. Def the one song where after I learned the meaning I could relate back to myself heavily. Also it reminds me of Cloud lol which makes me like it more.

These r mostly just my favs from each one I do not feel like putting like everything on here..more is on my spacehey

I will also be yapping about some of my favorite media under them so beware of long paragraphs and probably a lot of run-on sentences..ok

Games

ff7 is my favorite thing of all time literally nothing I have played, watched, or read has come close to the feeling I had playing it all for the first time bro.. Nothing else hits the same after it, even the stuff I liked before I got into ff7 doesn't hit the same as it did like a year ago. I could genuinely talk abt it for hours so if ur interest please hit me up🥺🥺

Rn I am playing ff13 trilogy and Witch's Heart. I plan on playing ff15, ff8, ff16, some other ffs maybe, Nier: Automana, maybe kingdom hearts idk, and some more rpg maker games

I usually pirate all my games unless they r free nowadays. My steam library is crap because of this... I would be playing ff15 instead of 13 rn, but the place I get my games doesn't have ff15 for windows 11, only 10 and idk how to make it run on my computer im crying. To my dismay, I also have not been able to play ff7 dirge of cerberus yet, the emulator I got can run the game but my controller and keyboard won't work properly with it so... fuck my fucking chungus life

Anime/manga

Bsd genuinely changed my life oh my goddd. My favorite anime of all time. The story lwk might not be the best but the characters just hit so different like. I feel like there is a little bit of myself reflected in all of them, so much so that I lwk cannot hate a single one of them (other than the ones you're supposed to hate obv lmao).

One of those things where it has a very specific audience and it knows it. If it ends I might end myself too 😔 /joking

Movies/Film

I have watched advent children like 4 times in the past month as of writing it is so peak bro..

Books

Everytime I read a book from Osamu Dazai I have these like moments where I think like, "oh that's just like me fr." I am in the middle of reading some short stories in the book No One Knows, the story of the schoolgirl genuinely has been hitting me like a truck. His books make me feel so seen and I love it so much, I 100% recommend his books please..

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Idrk what else I should do on this page so I decided to do some quotes...Some are quotes I just like and others are ones I found relatable. This might be rly corny it depends on how you look at it

"Embrace your dreams. And, whatever happens, protect your honor as SOLDIER!" - Zack Fair (Final Fantasy vii)

"If everything's a dream, don't wake me up" - Cloud Strife (Final Fantasy vii)

"I want to spend my time with people who don't look to be respected. But such good people won't want to spend their time with me" - The Setting Sun (Osamu Dazai)

"I fucking love air-conditioning" - Humphrey (OMORI)

"What's the point of living...if you don't have a dick?" - Donnie Darko

"A weak Diamond is no Diamond at all" - Diamond (Houseki no Kuni)

"Look at you! You think you've got it so damn hard, well you hate being alone so let people in! Sure you maye not answer the phone but I don't see you throwing it away, either!" -Tifa Lockhart (Final Fantasy vii)

"She said that every living creature on Earth dies alone...I don't wanna be alone..." - Donnie Darko

"A fourth-grader who's better at drawing than me? Absolutely unacceptable!" - Fujino (Look Back)

"I should have stayed away from you...the sky's kindest, most radiant star" - Qifrey (Witch Hat Atelier)

"I'm slowly overcome by this horrible sense of emptiness. It's as if all the exertion has reached a saturation point. My spirits plummet, and suddenly I'm dead tired and depressed, thinking: Enough! Who cares how anything turns out?" - Schoolgirl (Osamu Dazai)

"Are you hoping someone will notice you if you look troubled like that? But don't you realize that nobody cares about your suffering?" - Crona (Soul Eater)

"I'm going to keep on living. I think it'd be wrong to do anything else, after all that's happened...When I think of how many times I've told myself that, though, it makes me laugh...'Cause I always screwed it up." - Cloud Strife (Final Fantasy vii)

"Stray dogs are meant to be picked up" - Osamu Dazai (Bungo Stray Dogs)

"The skill, or rather the cunning it takes to steal someone else's ideas and make them my own - that's the only special talent I have." - Schoolgirl (Osamu Dazai)

"When I pretended I couldn't write a novel, people said I couldn't write. When I acted like a liar, they called me a liar. When I acted like a rich man, they started the rumor I was rich. WHen I feigned indifference, they classed me as the indifferent type. But when I inadvertently groaned because I was really in pain, they started the rumor I was faking suffering." - The Setting Sun (Osamu Dazai)

"I hate everyone. Nobody cares about me. Nobody Stays with me. So I don't want to depend on anybody, but I hate it at the same time. It's a pain! I don't wanna be alone! I don't wanna be alone! I DON'T WANNA BE ALONE!!" - Asuka Langley - (Evangelion)

"I bet she loves you and tries really hard to make you happy, doesn't she? I bet you know she does, don't you? But instead of thanks you sit there calling her a bitch" - Sayaka Miki (Madoka Magica)

"In whether I live or die makes no great difference. In truth, death may be the only absolute freedom there is." - Kaworu Nagisa (Evangelion)

"And that's when I knew in my heart. When it comes to manga, Fujino, you're a genius!" - Kyomoto (Look Back)

Most of my socials are at the bottom of this box.

This is a more in depth about me section. More about like social habits and stuff...I also know I said before I didn't rly want to get into anything extremely personal if this seems like I'm venting I am not bro..

In all honesty, I am really bad at doing any kind of about me lmao. It's not that I don't know like who I am and stuff, I know what I like, it's just hard yk. I feel like a narcissit whenever I am forced to talk about myself, especially if I have to talk highly of myself..So I'm sorry if this is like rly vauge and crappy I am also writting this at 3am so chill...I really like talking abt my interests tho!! Which is why the sections abt the stuff I like were so long lol.

I rly just want to have an area where I share what kind of ppl I don't want to be around so here, think of it as a dni and int list (maybe closer to a block list but wtv).

Okay obviously ppl who r like racist, homophobic/transphobic, sexist, ect will get blocked for obvious reasons. Loli/shotacons and darkshippers too you guys r werid af I am probably gonna make a blog post abt these kinds of ppl eventually.

The rest of this is kinda just more like people that piss me off so here: sefikura (cloud x sephiroth) shippers sefikura shippers sefikura shippers I hate ALL of you 😭 esp the ones saying it's not a darkship even though it is literally groomer/abuser x victim yaoislop you guys are weird asf. THOSE okegom fans. I know okegom in itself is weird as hell, but like yk what I mean. This includes literally all sal/syakesan fans bro...Mfs who try to find every excuse under the sun to say a slur they can't say as well as people who genuinely think cracker is a slur.

I'm gonna be so honest here too, but my social skills are lowkey crap. I am awkward and axious about like everything...😭 Like I will not speak to you unless you go out of your way to talk to me first. Even if we do like start talking more frequently I have a hard time msging first so if I engage w u first js know I rly like talking to u and I trust u ok?? Speaking of trust, if I trust you and talk to you a lot, I will adopt like parts of how you talk into my own personality uhmmm. Idk why I do this it's kinda js natural.

I never rly had like a bunch of friends all my life. I grew up in a small town where literally everyone knew each other. I had basically the same friends for 10 years so I never went out of my way to make new friends, or rly even learn how, because I never needed to. Now that I'm in highschool I am just now realizing how fucking bad I am at socializing. 🫩🫩 It really does not help that I don't go to the same school as my old friends... I'm trying to work on it though I have some people at school I know so I'm not completely alone.

I formally apologize to anyone I personally know for this stuff. 😭😭 It's not ur fault if I seem avoidant I promise...I am also a lot more energetic online bc it's easier for me to express if I'm happy abt something to ppl, especially if I don't know u well enough to the point it's similar online and irl.

bruh another apology but sorry (if you can't tell alr I say sry a lot) if I sound rly boring or dry on this page the making of this was rly awkward bc like I said I don't like talking abt myself this much...I'm cool I promise

Ok so here are my socials/contact stuff!! A lot of them are just places for me to post art, but you can lwk find that stuff in the gallery if you don't want to go offiste for it. I also have insta and airbuds, but those are more for ppl ik personally.